A big yellow stripe
"A large yellow stripe," I replied, and, after a breath, followed up with the words; "The yellow stripe should represent my first orgasm".
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I'm still trying to navigate when I'm hypomanic
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My life is too short to have to live my life in the shadow of myself
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Psychological violence: From self-hatred to self-love
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Pregnant: Just the thought of the tiny baby in my belly put an end to his desire for adult play
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Pregnant: My sex drive disappeared like dew before the sun the second a sperm fertilized an egg in my body
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Grooming: I was 16 years old when my mother's husband started his abuse
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Eating disorder and sex: I couldn't stand it if I had to feel my body
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I was abused as a child: I learned all too early that my body was not mine, that my boundaries were not to be respected and that my feelings were not important
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Vulvodynia: When I first let my ex-boyfriend touch me, an unpleasant and almost excruciating pain occurred
For as long as I can remember, I have always associated my abdomen with pain or a feeling that something was wrong, from my first period, to my first sexual...